6 Weeks

6 Weeks:

I just realized I'm wearing the same shirt in both of my weekly pictures so far... I promise I do wear other clothes and these are a week apart.

I'm not going to lie, so far this pregnancy has been a little difficult for me. With Elli and with my miscarriage both I had an instant attachment to the pregnancy and was in love with the baby from the get go. This time around, I really am struggling to feel any kind of attachment to it. I think a big part of that is because of the miscarriage I'm scared to get attached because I know that it could be taken away from me so easily. I'm really hoping that when we go into our first appointment and have an ultrasound things will be a little better. I'll be 9 weeks then which is farther a long than the point that the last baby stopped growing so I'm hoping that will give me a little more reassurance. Elli has been helping though. She is completely in love with this baby doll of Dusty's and is always holding it like this and asking me to rock it. That makes me more excited to be pregnant because I can't wait to see her with a real baby. She is going to be the best big sister ever!

 

How far along? 6 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: I honestly don't know. Some days the scale says I've gained like five pounds, some it says I'm at the same weight. I'm pretty sure I'm retaining a lot of water since I'm so bloated so it's really just jumping around everywhere.
Maternity clothes? Honestly it wouldn't hurt. I only have one pair of jeans that really fits me comfortably and forget about wearing my dress pants to work. I'm just way too bloated so I've been breaking out the belly band way too early this time around.
Stretch marks? Nothing new but I have plenty.
Sleep: I am so exhausted but I'm struggling to fall asleep when it's actually time to go to bed. I honestly don't remember being this tired with either of my other two pregnancies.
Best moment this week: finding out that I passed the NAPLEX so I now only have to study for the MPJE and then I can just be a working mom without having to be studying so much.
Miss anything? I miss not being fatigued. I know I am being kinda whiny about it but I'm just not used to being this tired. I really don't think I ever was before and with trying to study I really don't have time to nap or be tired.
Movement: Obviously way too early, but I really can't wait. I think with what happened with my last pregnancy that will be the only thing to really help me feel completely confident in this pregnancy.
Food cravings: Salad. I just want really good salad all the time lately.
Anything making you queasy or sick: So far I haven't really been sick, thank goodness.
Have you started to show yet: Haha, I don't think I ever didn't look pregnant. I look like at least 18 weeks already right now...
Gender: I keep going back and forth on what I think it is going to be. A big part of me wants to say girl, but I'm just not sure if that's right and I keep wondering if maybe it is a boy. Elli told us quite emphatically several times this last week that there are two babies in mommy's tummy...so that makes me just a little nervous. Twins would be very fun, but I'm not sure how I would handle that right now.
Labor signs: I honestly don't really have any pregnancy signs at all other than extreme fatigue.
Bell button in or out? In. Thank goodness for a deep belly button.
Wedding rings on or off? I feel really bad about this, but I don't even really know because I haven't been wearing it...I have just been so incredibly hot all the time lately and I don't like jewelry when I'm hot.
Happy or moody most of the time: I have been a lot more moody this go round than my other two pregnancies. I blame it on the stress of studying for my exams and getting licensed. And the fact that we are living with parents while we try to either buy or build a house. I love them so much, but it's hard on everyone to not have our own space.
Looking forward to: getting my last test out of the way, getting licensed, getting in our own house. Having our first OB appointment on July 13th. Elli getting to be a big sister.

Your Baby is as Big as a Sweet Pea

• Obviously, she's growing like crazy!
• She's also circulating blood with her increasingly more sophisticated circulatory system.
• She's about to get cuter too, since she's starting to sprout a nose, eyes, ears, chin and cheeks.
• And she might even be wiggling her (paddle-like) hands and feet.

The average embryo at week 6 is about .25 inches and will double in size again next week. Wow!

5 Weeks

5 Weeks:

How far along? 5 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: So far I think I'm where I started.
Maternity clothes? No, but I'm so bloated that none of my dress pants fit so it may be sooner rather than later.
Stretch marks?  None that are new at least
Sleep: I sleep fine, but I'm really tired all the time anyway. I've also been way hot at night so that has made sleep a little harder for me.
Best moment this week: Finding out that I was pregnant again
Miss anything? Nothing really yet. I've been bad and have even still eaten lunch meat since finding out so I haven't had time to miss anything.
Movement: Far too early for that yet
Food cravings: Not really anything yet
Anything making you queasy or sick: So far no sickness that I can think of, though powerade gives me crazy heartburn and I'm not sure if that's pregnancy related or not.
Have you started to show yet: Sort of? Bloat and my normal belly but not really a new bump or anything.
Gender: I'm banking on girl
Labor signs: Nothing yet.
Bell button in or out? IN
Wedding rings on or off? On, except when I'm really hot, which is a lot lately
Happy or moody most of the time: I think so far I've been okay most of the time. I'm pretty stressed about studying for my exams, so that doesn't help very much with my moodiness.
Looking forward to: Being done with my exams, scheduling my first appointment, getting to a point in the pregnancy where I'm not as worried because I can feel the baby kicking.

Oh, and because I'm crazy I took another test, I guess it is real:

Your Baby is as Big as a Appleseed

• The embryo doesn't look like much more than a tadpole right now, but at five weeks, she's already starting to form major organs (heart, stomach, liver, kidney) and systems (digestive, circulatory, nervous).

Your embryo is now measurable — though at week five, it's a wee .13 inches — and she's gearing up for much more growth. In fact, in the next week, she'll almost double in size. Grow baby grow!

Sometimes there are rainbows....

Today has been a crazy day. And I'm a bit in disbelief... with both of my previous pregnancies it took us a significant amount of time trying before getting pregnant. I assumed that after our miscarriage in March it was going to be quite awhile before we ended up finding out that we were pregnant again. I didn't feel anything really this month about it but on a whim decided to take a pregnancy test and to my surprise within a few minutes a faint second line showed up. I didn't really believe it so a few hours later I took another test, and of course an even darker line appeared.

I was home all day just waiting for Colton to get home from rotation so I could tell him. I told him that night. We went and looked at a few houses that we are considering buying and were talking on the way home if we maybe want to build a house instead. I said that building would be great but I was a little worried that it wouldn't be done in time if we did. As I said that I held out the positive pregnancy test so he could see it. He wasn't looking right away and was just saying "yeah, I'd really like to move in somewhere by December" then looked over and was shocked and surprised. I really don't think that either of us thought that it would happen so fast this go around but he was really excited too.

Colton really wanted to tell our parents about it tonight so we told my mom when we got home by showing her the test and then drove to his parents house. That was fun because we had Elli go in and tell them that there was a baby in mommy's belly. Which was very adorable. We aren't really making a big deal out of announcing this time to the rest of family members since it was so recent that we did a bigger announcement to them, so we have just be telling them as it comes up but haven't really done a ton.

I'm hopeful that this time around things will be going much better, but I'll have to admit it isn't easy to not be nervous about everything with my miscarriage being so fresh. I just have to decide on a Doctor down in Cedar City and then I guess we'll know when my first appointment is.